hey guys. i'm gonna try and do a long update since i haven't in a while. my grandfather died yesterday. i'm hanging in there. i have a quincenaira to go to today. so i have to get ready for that soon. but yeah. here's the update.

I've always been the nice girl,
but this year I learned that you
have to go after what you want.

Just say what you mean, and mean what you say.
Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts.
Don't tell half truths, and expect trust when the full truth comes out.
Half truths are no better than lies.
Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more than angry words.

One day you're gonna want that girl.
The girl that wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you.
The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it,
because something was better than nothing.
That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and
love you the way she knows she only could.
The girl who sees your flaws but values them as much as your strengths.
That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it.
That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated.
The girl who realizes she may never have your heart but will carry the image of you in her's forever.
The girl that sees this and still loves you.
The girl that should have you, but doesn't.
Even though she deserves it.

months went by with us pretending
when did our light turn from green to red
i took a chance and left you standing
lost the will to do this once again

you know, it's nothing new
bad news never had good timing
but then your circle of friends
will defend the silver lining
pain throws your heart to the ground
love turn the whole thing around
no, it won't all go the way it should
but i know the heart of life is good

There has got to be a way out.
I need to find a way out.
I need to

credit::
Mmhm_Quotes
incredible_quotess

updateeee :]

she's banged up.
mentally and emotionally.
literally and metaphorically.
but every day she walks outside
with a smile on her face.
because that's who she is,
the girl who never stopped smiling.

i wanna be the girl thats good for
him, you know? the one he changes
for & the one where even if i'm not
physically with him, i'm always on his
mind. & he thinks i'm the best thing
thats ever happened to him.

You're not my type.
You're not supposed to be the guy I dream about.
But for some reason, I'm not trying to pick myself back up,
because even if I'm not supposed to,
there's no one else who I would rather fall for.

Every boy is surrounded by girls.
I just want one to pick me from the mob;
Not because I was fighting for him,
But simply because I caught his eye.

And this is the part where you and I
are nothing more than a crossed out
heart on the tree in my backyard.

hey hey :]]
here's some quotessss.

so this is when we finally learn the real
meaning of change. you do the things you
used to be against, you befriend the people
you used to hate. you'll learn what it's like to
have your heart broken, to lose a friend that
truly meant something to you, and to feel as if
everything is really falling apart. maybe this is
just what growing up is.

DARLiNG, you better open up your eyes
& see that girl, patiently waiting for you
she's the only one worth your time
she's the only one that really cares
so grab hold of her
before she silently slips away

I found it strange
the way you always
said her name. to be
honest, I would kill to be her.

& there she goes with her head in the clouds again,
ignoring the drama and chasing her dreams.
becuase to her, reality is a stranger.

i just want to get inside your head,
so i can see how you feel about me.
it's all i wonder about lately.

i'm waiting for a boy.
no, i don't have experience.
no, i'm not outgoing.
no, i can't tell you how i feel.
no, i'm not pretty, but
i'm waiting for a boy.
a boy who will accept me.
a boy who will love me.
a boy who will be there.
a boy who means the world.

I wish there was a way.
A way for you to see inside me.
I've never felt this way, about anyone, or anything

you know..you have to let go of what
once was, and what will never be again.
just FORGET, move on, and be happy

FATE `--»
decides who enters your life.
ACTiONS `--»
decide who stays in your life.
[ but there`s no point in trying
to rush fate. because the best things
in life are worth the wait ]

it`s funny how you can grow away from
your friends. when, just a few years ago,
they were the most important people in your life.

youu just gotta deal with the shit that people
do. not everyone in life is gonna stay true.

.. & i`m scared that i`m gonna walk
out of this room without you ever
realizing how much you really, truly
mean to me<3

you`re the sweetest kind of catastrophe.
the one that keeps me up at night. i never
thought this would be worth it. but i`m *
not willing to give up this fight.

and you know damn well
that we`d go crazy without eachother.

more people would learn from their
mistakes if they weren`t too busy
denying them.

[ EVERYTHiNG ] that happens in your life
has a reason. usually, we`re too stubborn to
see it, but some day down the road, you`ll *
realize the lesson you needed to learn long ago.

don`t let the trends tell
you that you`re not beautiful.

hey guys. here's an updateee :]]

you only find a few people in this
world, a few people who will tell
you they love you & mean it with
all their heart. don't forget those
people who stood by you through
it all, the special few that were
there for you till the very end

come. sit down.
watch the sunset with me <3

he had a way with words
he had a way of making her weak in the knees
he had a way of picking her up
&& l e t t i n g h e r g o.

just to let you know, i've never
fallen so hard.

he's the one thing worth holding onto;
no matter how long you two go without talking,
he will always find a way back into your heart.
no matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't.
it's the little things that mean the most,
but break your heart all the same.
just wishing he thinks about you...
just the small thought of maybe,
just maybe there might be an '` us `'
gives you the strength to hold on that much longer.
you never realize how much you love something
until you lose it. & you're one of the lucky ones
if you get it back..

people often hold onto something
because they fear nothing that great
could ever happen to them again.

the biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone,
who you once had the time of your life with

if you like her, tell her.chances
are she loves you twice as much

you don't know how it feels to be so in love
with someone who doesn't even care.

so, please, just be patient. i'm so
afraid to care about someone. i know it
seems like i'm this strong girl who can
get through everything, but inside i'm
very fragile. i've had so many things
thrown at me, & each one has only made
a crack. what i'm afraid of is shattering

Girl; you`ll make it
through this tough time..
just keep your chin up
let your worries pass you by
throw your head back
and laugh with the sky..

so i put on my makeup
put a smile on my face
and if anyone asks me
everything is 0KAY

your 1st day of kindergarten was scary
the last day of middle school made you cry
and the end of highschool will blow your mind
it's all the memories in between
we'll remember & cherish forever

admit it... you only want
me when you can't have her </3

so you know what makes letting go
of a crush so hard? The fear that the
moment you let go, they'll catch on.

at some point in life, you`ll get over the fact
that girls cause drama. it`s in the rulebook of life.
you`ll realize that it`s like a sin if a guy doesn`t break your heart.
but the most important rule of life is-
your true friends will always be there when you need them most

& she doesn't care
what they say about her.
because she realized;
they don't know anything

i hate this feeling,
its like i just don't
know you anymore

My theory is if you look confident
you can pull off anything. Even if you
have no clue what your doing...
- Jessica Alba

just another lie living on your lips
yet, i kissed you anyways.

wow. it's been forever since i have updated this.
sorry guys. i've been really busy.
freshman year. danceteam stuff.
i have a competition on the 11th.
i get to do it. i made try outs :]] YAY!
but yeah. here's some quotes.
i would get credits, but i already exited outta the window that i got
them from. sorry.
but if you know that you have them on your site..
or you wrote them.. THANKS :]] cred. to you.

there's a bigger world out there .. a bigger
world than middle school, than high school,
than the drama, the sluts, the bitches, the players,
the nerds, & the jocks .. it's up to you to find it.

Oh a million faces pass my way
Oh they're all the same
nothing seem to change anytime I look around
Oh who knows just what the future holds
all I want to know is if it's with you

so, i've been thinking about you and me.
& how perfectly we work together

theres a difference between pretty & beautiful
when someone is pretty, they have a good
appearance. but when someone is beautiful,
they shine on the inside and out. <3

loving you is like a rollercoaster.
it has it's ups && downs && all arounds,
but when it's over, i know i`m gonna say,
"that was fun." =]

I think i like this kid
more than i thought i did

He's the one thing worth holding onto; no matter how long you two go without talking, he will always find a way back into your heart. No matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't. It's the little things that mean the most, but break your heart all the same. just wishing he thinks about you... just the small thought of maybe, just maybe there might be an '` us `' gives you the strength to hold on that much longer. You never realize how much you love something until you lose it. and you're one of the lucky ones if you get it back..

the biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone,
who you once had the time of your life with.

if you like her, tell her.chances
are she loves you twice as much

you don't know how it feels to be so in love
with someone who doesn't even care.

So, please, just be patient. I'm so
afraid to care about someone. I know it
seems like i'm this strong girl who can
get through everything, but inside i'm
very fragile. I've had so many things
thrown at me, & each one has only made
a crack. What i'm afraid of is shattering

welcome to a world where everyone talks about each other.
everyone lies. everyone tries to be something they're not.
nobody can keep a secret for their life, & friendships that
have lasted years are broken. believe it or not,
this world actually exsists. it goes by the name of
* HiGHSCHO0L.

Life is short; but the fun wont end
not when you`re my best friend

Girl; you`ll make it
through this tough time..
just keep your chin up
let your worries pass you by
throw your head back
and laugh with the sky..

THANKS GUYS!
update sooner than next week.
leave comments to remind me :]]
THANKS!